My Heart House

July 5th, 2017 Posted by Immersion Internship - 2017

Hello! My name’s Kelsey Lemon and I am being insanely transformed by the intimate power of Jesus Christ here in Choma, Zambia.
The Lord has brought me here for many reasons, many I’m sure I don’t know yet, but especially to pull me away, draw me in, and show me who I am in Him and how much He loves me. Over the first few weeks I’ve been taught so much about my identity in Christ, how to study the Bible and what my purpose is in this crazy life. Although all of these lessons have impacted me insanely, I want to take this blog to expand on what I’ve been able to absorb through our first week’s lessons on identity.

As a quick precursor to this I wanted to share that intimacy is something I’ve always struggled with, feeling distant or disconnected is something I’ve been used to and even came to a point of accepting it as some character flaw I must carry for the rest of my life. But not anymore! Within the first week I was blessed by teachers who allowed Jesus to speak right through them and tell me how wrong I am; that there is an abundance of pure intimate love designed for my heart and my life. We were encouraged to imagine our “heart house”. To close our eyes and allow the imaginations God blessed us with to bring to life the desires of our hearts in the image of a house. A place to dwell, rooms vacant or filled, places to invest in whoever you decide to let in doing whatever you decide to do. I wish I could walk through this with everyone on this planet and show them how perfectly God has created each of our hearts as individuals.
I am a brick home, my garden full of food I can harvest and cook with Jesus in my kitchen, to feed anyone who walks through my always open doors. I have a glass greenhouse full of flowers and plants and a cobblestone floor leading to a table for two- a place to have tea, to sit and think and be in the presence of one I love. I am a ballroom with wooden floors stretched out meeting walls filled with open windows allowing in the warm breeze of the always warm valley I dwell inside. The curtains dance on the air that comes in and fills my lungs as I dance down an aisle- reliving the moment I said yes and became a bride of Christ. I can see Jesus there as I walk in again, eyes full of adoring tears, joy rolling down His cheeks as I take myself back to our permanent “I do.”. I see us dancing and ending this time sitting on the floor, Him brushing my hair and letting me soak in the infinite warmth that is His love.

There was more but that explains so much what I found in my heart that day- intimacy. An unashamed desire to be loved and valued and to find community, to grow and give life and experience real rest. Quickly after this experience that opened my eyes, I closed them and found myself mourning the fact that this intimacy is something I will not be able to truly experience until I enter into eternity with my Savior. Bare with me, I have to jump ahead to continue explaining how God was transforming my heart that day.
Later that day was kids club- an event we host on the base with any and all kids in the surrounding community. They are invited to come, play some games, get loved on and learn about the Bible and the truth it holds out for them to grab unto. I found myself sitting on the patio, surrounded by kids, the warm breeze coming through; and Jesus brushing my hair. Through small dusty hands Jesus met me that afternoon, playing with my hair and answering the call of my heart. My heart house is a place on earth when I am dwelling in the presence of God and following Him in obedience. Quite literally he gives me what only my heart knew I’ve always longed for. Since that day I’ve grown closer and closer and know who I am because of the love He desires to pour over me. I’m overflowing to say the least.
My team is full of encouragement and love and so is this beautiful community and country. Living in a constant state of thanksgiving and anticipation for all the ways the Holy Spirit will continue to move this summer.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Kelsey Lemon • 2017 International Immersion Intern