To be asked to reflect on my entire experience here this summer is unfair. So much has happened and been revealed to me. God is good! It is so crazy to think that I left Michigan the end of May and now it’s almost mid-August! Time flies and yet I feel as though I have been here forever. I am blown away.
I think one of the main things I learned this summer was how to embrace who I am, who God made me to be. How to operate within who I am without limiting myself to those things. And to not compare my gifts with other people’s gifts, nor get discouraged when I can’t help it. To rest in the fact that God has made me who I am, and all I have to be is HIS. He will do the rest. To just simply BE. To be present and engaged, even if it’s in silence or listening. I am discovering the freedom of being me. That’s all.
I can say that I am even more uncertain of my future now then I was at the beginning of the summer. Coming into this I hoped that God would reveal at least which continent He wanted me on, or even what branch of ministry I should pursue. I feel even more uninformed. Throughout the summer I kept getting glimpses of something I could do, and then another glimpse of something else, and another. The challenge is being patient for what God has for me even though I cannot see but a few months in advance. This week my future became even more uncertain because I lost my job because I have been away too long. So I am left wondering what God has planned for me. There are days when it is discouraging to have no plans, and other days (like today) when I am filled with excitement and anticipation for all that He has in store for me. I know that He has the best in mind for me and can’t wait to see what He does.
I am also very sad to leave this place; it has grown on me. I’m going to miss the brisk cool morning devotions and the almost constant sunshine, the people all around me, my dear friends, and maybe even the dust. I am so very thankful that I got to be here this summer, it’s all God! He is so good and I am so excited to see what He does.
|ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Mehgan Kuhns • 2017 International Immersion Intern